Horrible morning :(
Got up late so was in a rush, plaiting took loads longer than I'd thought too so foolishly only managed to get on with literally 3 or 4 minutes till my test :rolleyes: Stupid, stupid girl :banghead: Thought she would be fine as it was at home. Not the case. She isn't usually spooky but the fact I was rushing made her tense, and she clocked the landrover with the judge in and all the people watching. Got on and she was really tense, had to go pretty much straight into trot and nearly withdrew there and then as she felt like an unexploded bomb. Allebazi kindly led me round in walk to try to get her to settle and then I had a trot but she threw her toys and went up, not small either. Sent her forwards and she went up again so I leapt off in tears. Topgroom kindly came and got on, Madam Flow objected strongly, reared, went forwards into canter, was ok, bucked, reared then reared again and B came off, Flow nearly stood on her head :cold: luckily she was ok. Flow then proceeded to gallop round for 10 minutes, winding up Izzy and Mary who were in the field next to the school. Becky has waited so long for Izzy to come sound, I just felt awful.
S managed to catch her and we took her in and put her on the walker but she was still pretty wired. D made me a cup of tea and everyone was lovely. Just felt like such a prat with all those people watching.
Apologised to judge who said the behaviour was dangerous and I should think about what I'm going to do with her. She's not going anywhere. I worship her, retard moments and all. Had a lovely lunch with Lorna :sloppy: and had a good think about what had gone wrong. I'm kicking myself for not giving us time to warm up. I am fairly certain if we'd had 25 or so minutes to walk and trot round and be chilled there wouldn't have been an issue but it was my own fault for rushing and getting her stressed and she totally loses it when she can't cope. Really angry with myself for spoiling what should have been a fun day for me and Flow and needlessly setting us back. But you live and learn.
S was really, really lovely tonight, I don't know her very well but isn't it nice when people surprise you with how helpful they are? She helped me lunge Flow - got her really tired, lots of canter to get the bucking and leaping out of her system and then gave me instructions from the ground when I got on which helped as I didn't have to think, just ride. We had a walk trot canter and she was fab - it's crazy, Midnight never did anything like this but I just feel differently about Flow, am happy to get back on. Am clearly deranged.
S also gave me a beautiful rosette for being brave :lol: :wub: the Netherwood. Feeling a bit meep but we have wine, chocolate and Twilight. And we're not afraid to use them.
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You described a difficult morning very lucidly! I don't feel qualified to offer advice, but would comment that you shouldn't beat yourself up about not allowing long enough to warm up. The warm up area was busy and tense earlier and might have been even more difficult then. There was good reason to hold back a little until it was quieter. Glad the lunging and schooling tonight went well. Personally, I find being a bit "deranged" is essential - how else could one justify still trying to do a first prelim on David at my age - so chin up!
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